of trying to rest, relax and feeel better. And honnestly, I thought it would be easier than that. Some days, I feel good and in a good mood, ride my bike in the coutry, smiling and laughin. Other days, I wake nauseous, almost crying, seeing everything dark. The medecine is doing its job pretty well, but loneliness is still there. It’s hard to talk to my parents about something I can’t really can put a finger on, and let’s face it, they’re sometimes busy wit their own problems.  There’s a lot anger in me, but a lot of love that needs to get out. But who’s ready for it? My familiy and friends are here but i’m still not able to talk to them about my feelings/problems. I will probably get help from someone’s paid to listen to me, I need to find my inner peace. I don’t want to be scared of future anymore and want to stop thinking that this guy is the one for me and we’ll never be together. This London thing is still sometimes somewhere in my head, but it will take time, money and many things to achieve. Right now, and I don’t even have strenght for projects, have no choic but live each day one at a time. I ust wish someone out there would understand me, take me as I am and know the great person I can be…